From July 5, 2011
Journal response to “The Heart of the Teacher” by Parker J. Palmer. Change. Nov/Dec 1997. Vol. 29, Issue 6.
I can identify with the author’s feelings about how “ . . . command of content . . . always eludes our grasp”. . . I remember how I envied the 16th century writers and teachers who had much smaller bodies of work to deal with. The absolute mass of writing out there boggles the mind. The idea of knowledge being content has become obsolete.
The whole concept of the teacher’s “heart” and the students’ “hearts” being central to teaching is one to which I adhere. My classroom journaling activity this year was especially insightful in that it really helped me develop deeper relationships with my students—we looked forward to that daily interaction. The concept of “relationship” also came through in my research on Aboriginal best practices.
In my opinion, a relationship embodies the intellectual, emotional, and spiritual—it fits in with my spiritual beliefs about having a vital love relationship with God. My personal faith revolves around that relationship, and it is that relationship that gives me the desire to love people around me. I believe true love for others involves all aspects of who we are as physical, emotional, intellectual, and spiritual beings. We care for the whole person, not just one part.
That idea of joining student and teacher together in the “fabric of life” (Teaching Beyond Technique, para. 6) in a student -teacher connection is consoling. Many times I feel I have not spent enough time preparing, or I feel that I have not incorporated enough differentiated instruction. Palmer’s observations relieve me of some of that ‘ angst’.
When Palmer shared stories about his most outstanding teachers, I had to think about those who stood out for me. One was my Grade 3 teacher, who truly identified each of our individual gifts, and celebrated them along with us in our classroom. She nurtured us emotionally, and inspired us to excellence, while also feeding our spirits. Another teacher was a high school Language Arts teacher who placed eight of us in a study, along with a tape recorder, and let us loose with Shakespeare. We laughed our way through Macbeth, and she told us that some of our most insightful comments came out of those moments of laughter. She placed trust in us and our abilities, but she wasn’t always easy on us. One day she told me she marked a piece I had written in the evening, but in the cold light of morning realized my writing really had little substance, and revised her mark. She was passionate about Language Arts, and I knew she cared about her students, so I could accept her criticism and learn from it.
Palmer’s description of educators’ emphasis on being “objective” is very much the experience I had in school, but changed by the time I was in university, where postmodern influences deconstructed the whole concept of objectivity. It is a relief to be able to say “I” in our AR projects.
Continued after Group Discussion July 6, 2011
We discussed a section from “When Teachers Lose Heart” about how we distance ourselves from students and from our hearts when we forget who we are. Somehow we got into the idea of how art allows you to connect with your inner person, and Nancie talked about how some of her art students who felt they were not “artists” ended up being very surprised at what came out in their work. We looked at some of their artwork (on Nancie`s computer), and it truly was amazing.
I had some questions about the section “Listening to the Teacher Within”. In the seventh paragraph, the author discusses how the student’s inward teacher is ignored. I was confused as to whether the author was suggesting we all have a teacher within, and if so, how then is the teacher in us any different from the teacher in the students. We discussed the concept of each person having a vocation, and listening to the teacher within would be to listen to what your heart tells you to do. Karen gave the example of her husband’s “job”, which he does during the day, and his “vocation”, which is what he truly loves to do, but which does not put bread and butter on the table. Nadine suggested that through teaching, even if learners are not motivated, through the teacher’s passion, they begin to gain a new perspective.
We thought paragraph 13, in the same section, a bit extreme at first, but upon reflection, and sharing experiences, we agreed that the author’s analysis of being silenced or going into a deep depression (suicidal, is my interpretation) are both possibilities. I had to think about the high rate of suicides in Aboriginal communities.
I found the section “Institutions and the Human Heart” disturbing in its metaphorical language about wars. I felt that the author was writing out of a different context than mine, and therefore, his personal experience as a teacher may have been very traumatic.
In the end, what I took away from the reading were three main messages: to be open to your potential, to be willing to listen to yourself and your students, and to stay true to who you are.